Monthly Archives: August 2013

Happy Birthday To The Doctor & Ace

Today, the 20th August is the joint birthday of former Doctor Who stars Sylvester McCoy and Sophie Aldred who are 70 and 51 respectively.

Sylvester McCoy was born Percy James Patrick Kent-Smith on 20th August 1943 in DUnoon, Scotland. McCoy has numerous stage and TV acting roles including the legendary Saturday morning children’s show TISWAS, prior to being cast as the seventh incarnation of The Doctor in 1987. Sophie Aldred was born in Greenwich, England on 20th August 1962. Aldred was cast as Dorothy ‘ACE’ McShane in 1987, replacing Bonnie Langord as Melanie Bush, companion to the sixth Doctor Colin Baker.

DragonfireTeamWe first saw the pairing of Sylvester’s Doctor and Sophie as Ace in the Series 24 opening serial DRAGONFIRE which aired 23rd November 1987 – 7th December 1987.

Synopsis: On Iceworld, the Doctor and Mel unexpectedly encounter an old friend –Sabalom Glitz. Joined by Ace, a teenage waitress with a love for explosives, the group ventures off to find the fabledDragonfire treasure. But as usual, dark forces close in on them – and Iceworld itself.

Series 26 ended with Survival which aired 22nd November – 6th December 1989.  T20120413022232!Survival_finalhis was to be the final ever episode of the world’s longest running science fiction television proramme, and Sylvester and Sophie’s swan song. The series’ finalé saw the Doctor and Ace head ‘home’ to the ever faithful and sometimes unreliable TARDIS. After 27 years, Doctor Who had come to an end, finally losing the fight to stay on UK screens  to BBC1 Controller Jonathan Powell who pulled the plug; despite his predecessor Michael Grade’s initially attempt to cancel the show during Colin Baker’s tenure in 1985.

Here is their final scene together in Survival (although they went on to film Ghost Light which was the second serial of Series 26 which aired 4th October – 18th October 1989). John Nathan-Turner brought McCoy back in to the studio on 23rd November 1989 to record the now iconic voice-over for the scene …

Doctor: “There are worlds out there where the sky is burning,  the sea is alseep and the rivers dream; people made of smoke and cities made of song. Somewhere there’s danger, somewhere there’s injustice, and somewhere else the tea is getting cold. Come on Ace, we’ve got work to do”

Remembering Anthony Ainsley

As a matter of fact, today would have been the 81st birthday of the late, great Anthony AinsleyDoctor Master, who played The Master from 1981 – 1989. His Master went up against  four incarnations of The Doctor, from what is now referred to as the vintage or classic series of Doctor Who; played by and in order: Tom Baker (Fourth), Peter Davison (Fifth), Colin Baker (Sixth) and Sylvester McCoy (Seventh). First appearing in The Keeper Of Trakken.

Ainsley reprised his role as The Master in the 1997 BBC  computer game Destiny Of The Doctors, which was to be his last appearance as the character.


(20/08/1932 to 03/05/2004)


Psychosexual therapist & transitioning

transsexualtransfection1xI was referred to Principal Psychosexual Therapist  Martin J Riley in October 2005 by my GP, after having counselling with RELATE Wrecsam. Back then, his office was at the Grove Road NHS Clinic. Earlier this year, many NHS clinic were moved to the Wrecsam Maelor Hospital campus, and now, he is based within Tŷ Deryn.

I remember feeling very anxious about talking through my emotions, feelings and the need to change gender with a man. I thought it would be easier talking through how I was feeling with a woman, after all, I saw myself as a woman. I was expecting to see an older man with a beard but  not quite. He was grey haired and no beard and tall and very kind, thoughtful, understanding. Within 5 minutes, I was at ease I broke down in tears  as I began to tell him about why I was there and why i needed help, and he handed me a box of tissues. I wasn’t telling him anything he had not heard before from other in my situation but, this was my story; my inner most feelings and desire I was spilling. It was not like I could lie to get what I wanted was it, after all; he would be able to tell if I was. Plus, what would be the point in doing so? I was there for his help, to guide me along the path I could no longer turn away from. I was scared …. shit scared in all honesty. Who wouldn’t be?I explained that if I didn’t seek help now, I would preobably end up being sectioned. I was losing the plot big time – rocking back and fro with my legs up to my chest, banging my head against the wall and talking to myself and losing track of who and where I was and of time too. I have very little memory of how I was back then. I try to fill in the gaps, unsuccessfully mind. Basically, it was now or never to seek help, I had told myself.

I had tried many times in my twenties (24), to seek help and I had actually sought an hour’s counselling with RELATE Deeside who, at the end of the session, had given me a number to phone in Wrecsam, that number was either for RELATE in Wrecsam or the Clinic on Grove Road, but I do not recall. I wish I had not cancelled the several appointments I had made. If I hadn’t, I would have gotten the help I so truly needed that much sooner – a good 10 years sooner.  I was so scared and kept cancelling the phone call just before I dialled the last digit. Seems so silly now. I guess I just was not ready despite wanting desperately to change my gender.

For the first few years, I went to see him in my old gender and worked through my feelings, my doubts, talked about family, friends, work place and free time. As well as my childhood, when did I first start to wear clothes of the opposite gender etc. My frame of mind was in a real dark place and I had little to no confidence in myself whatsoever. This is why it took me a couple of years to finally accept who I am. During 2008, I had made my decision  – I was going to transition from male to female.  I had been wearing female clothes out and about for a few year – women’s trainers, jeans, tees, jumpers but looking androgynous.  At my next  appointment,  I turned up head to toe as a woman much to Martin’s surprise! I had not forwarned him that I was going to do this and; I had not made the decision until the night before.  I wore a brown leather jacket, jeans, striped tee and slip on shoes and padded out my chest. I felt like ME. From then on, I turned up for my counselling as Cerys whilst in my home and work life, I worked up towards coming out and going full-time, which did not commence until April 2009. I had to build up to telling my family, friends and work place, as well as applying for my name change via Deed Poll.

A Deed Poll allows you to back date your change of name (can’t remember how far back you can) and I didn’t. I applied in the April of 2009 and therefore, I have officially been Cerys for 4 years 4 months although I began using my new name since 2006 when I started using Yahoo, and chose it a few years previous after going through different names – Bronwen, Morgana, Blodwyn, Mair amongst those  I contemplated. Why Cerys? Besides being a Welsh name, when I looked in the mirror, the name felt right. Cerys is a derivative of Carys which in turn is a derivative of Cariad (love), in turn stems from Calon meaning heart.

Shortly after my name change, my frame of mind took a severe nose dive for several months, taking me into 2010. For some reason, I had lost all confidence in myself and my transition to womanhood. Now, I have suffered with bouts of depression for years. My weight was affected each time – losing weight to 8st 10/9st 2 to gaining weight and ballooning to 11st / 11st 7Ibs. Wearing a size 14 jeans, be it for a months, freaked me out so much that I lost what I gained and got back down to 9st 6Ibs before putting weight on again. I remained at around 10st /11st mark for 18 months on and off, and only since May 2013, have I got myself back to 9st 4Ibs. By late spring of 2010, my mood rose and I was in a happy place which gained momentum when endocrinologist Dr Wong at Ysbyty Glan Clwyd, prescribed me female hormones and testosterone blockers. Finally, I was on my way to becoming the woman I knew I am.  So, besides the normal ups and downs, a few med changes along the way, hormones are working nicely.

October 2012, I got a letter from WLMHT (West London Mental Health Trust), part of Charing Cross hospital, that an appointment had been made to see Dr Stuart Lorimer on Friday 21st December at 1.15pm but, I was not able to attend. I had to send a letter to rearrange the appointment for the new year. Within a few weeks, a letter arrived with the date of my new appointment – Friday, 28th February at 09.15. This was no good because I require an afternoon appointment, what with me having to travel to London from North Wales.  I rang WLMHT and after the receptionist looked at the calendar, Friday, 1st March 2013 1.15pm. The appointment lasted for 1 hour 30 minutes or so and Dr Lorimer gave me the green light to go for surgery pending what Dr Penny Lenihan said at my second appointment Thursday, 18th July 2013 and she too, gave me the all clear to go for surgery. Now waiting for a letter from the surgeons to arrange an appointment with them, hopefully before Christmas.

Coming back to the now, Thursday, 8th August was my last ever appointment with Martin Riley due to his retirement in October. I will miss going to Wrecsam every couple fo months to chat about how everything is going for me especially as I am so near to the end of my transition journey.  He is happy with how I have got myself out and about and meeting new people – Facebook groups Rustic Rainbow and Rainbow 25, two groups whereby I gained many new wonderful friends (you know who you are), for whom I am ever so grateful to know. I told him how I am just waiting for Dr Midence (Ysbyty Bangor) to complete part 1 of my GRC (Gender Recognition Certificate) and post back to me, and will be 4 weeks come Friday. Normally, Martin would chase this matter up but, this time, it is down to me to do so if I do not receive the form by end of the  week. After a handshake, a wish me look for the future, that was it, my final ta ra to Martin Riley after almost 8 years of counselling sessions.

It is going to be so weird not going to Ysbyty Maelor to see Martin Riley, definitely going to miss my appointments, especially for follow ups after surgery. From hereonin, my follow ups from Charing Cross will be with my GP Dr Elizabeth Shaheir. A brilliant doctor with whom I end up having a good laugh and a natter with each and very time I have gone to see her. Here is to the future …. may it bring me love, company and happiness.

(( Cwtch ))


Doctor Who – The Twelth Doctor IS Peter Capaldi

1000mattsmith2I am a huge fan iof Doctor Who and have been for as long as I can remember. I got into the show when the legend that is Tom Baker was in the role (which he remained in for a record 7 years). I came into the show during 1976 which was Elisabeth Sladen’s final series as investigative journalist Sarah Jane Smith. I am happy to call myself a Whovian. The best science fiction show on the tele box.

 Since Matt Smith announced his departure from Doctor Who on 4th June 2013, the search has been on to find a worthy replacement. Much speculation has been bounded about from the press and the fanbase, with such names as: Ben Daniels, Idris Elba,  Domonic Cooper, Domhnall Gleeson as well as female actors – Dame Helen Mirren, Sue Perkins and 2 times BAFTA winner Olivia Coleman. 7pm this evening, the wait was finally over. In a special BBC One programme – Doctor Who Live: The Next Doctor, which was simutaniously aired around the world. The programme was presented by Zoë Ball with on the sofa guests: Peter Davison (Fifth Doctor), comic actress Liza Tarbuck (Mount Pleasant),  and child actor Daniel Roche (Outnumbered), along with comedian Rufus Hound and the marvellous Bernard Cribbins (Wilfred Mott) was there in person.

There were  contributions from former companions including Anneke Wills (Polly), Katy Manning (Jo Grant), Janet Fielding (Tegan) and Bonnie Langford (Mel). Writer and actor Mark Gatiss also features in the show by way of a specially recorded video. There’ll also be video contributions from Professor Robert Winston, Jo Whiley, Bruno Tonioli and following his appearance in The Power of Three, Professor Brian Cox.

Capaldi - DoctorThat took care of the first 28 minutes of this Doctor Who special before Zoë Ball finally got around to actually revealing the identity of the actor who will be filling the shoes of Matt Smith and taking over the helm of the TARDIS; PETER CAPALDI. At the age of 55, he is the oldest Doctor of the rebooted version of Doctor Who (so since 2005). In fact, he is the same age as William Hartnell when he became the Doctor back in 1966.  Peter is a veteran of the Whoniverse with an appearance in the 2008 episode The Fires Of Pompeii where he played Caecillius and in Torchwood:Children Of Earth as John Frobisher.

Capaldi is a ‘lifelong Doctor Who fan’. He says he prepared by downloading old scripts and practising in front of the mirror.

Steven Moffat, lead writer and executive producer says : “It’s an incendiary combination: one of the most talented actors of his generation is about to play the best part on television. Peter Capaldi is in the TARDIS!”

Doctor Who companion, Jenna Coleman says : “I’m so excited Peter Capaldi is the man taking on the challenge of becoming the Twelfth Doctor. With Steven’s writing and his talent I know we’ll be making an amazing show with an incredible incarnation of number 12. I can’t wait to start this new adventure!”

Charlotte Moore, Controller BBC One says : “Peter Capaldi has all the genius and versatility needed to take on the mantel of the great Time Lord and make the role his own.  He’ll bring his own particular wisdom, charisma and wit to the Twelfth Doctor and take the show into an exciting new era.”

I am happy with their choice for the twelth Doctor. Like many Whovians, I wanted the next actor to be older than the last three –  Ninth Doctor Chris Eccleston (41), Tenth Doctor David Tennant (34) and  out-going Eleventh Doctor Matt Smith (26). I personally was hoping that they would choose an actor who was in their late 40’s / early 50’s just liek back in the 1960’s and 1970’s. I just wish they chosen a Welsh actor 🙂

The picture I put together using the present Doctor Who title logo and an image of Peter Capaldi from the SKY ARTS1 documentary programme ‘Inside The Mind Of Leonardo’ (Da Vinci).

12 and Dalek As Malcolm Tucker in BBC4’s ‘ The Thick Of It’ with a Dalek.

I can’t wait for the Christmas episode and Matt’s regeneration into Peter. Excited much 😀

(( Cwtch ))